Insecurities

What is it about women and emotions? Perhapes I am the only one here, but sometimes I feel trapped in my own feelings. Something bothers me and I just can't let it go until it is resolved. The tiniest thing can become huge in my own mind. I think men are generally more able to logically let things go. If only I could learn to do that better.

Yes, I admit, I cried over a TV show

So, I watched the season premier of Alias tonight. Wow. That was the saddest show. I realize that on Alias, people don't always "die." But it was awfully real looking. Yes I'm idealistic. But I was rather looking forward to the show ending with a nice wedding. Seriously. How can you kill off one of the main characters? Sigh.

A French Brittany Spears

Today I volunteered to be a "victim" for our mass casualty drill at the hospital. The scenario was that a hurricane had hit Florida Hospital and they had to evacuate some patients to us. I had the card of "Brittany Spears" and I had some problem with my stomach that was causing internal bleeding. Other people had lacerations and things like that. We all lined up at the ER and then staff had to practice how they would react in case of an emergency like Katrina. It was very interesting. To add to the "fun" I pretended to be vacationing from Paris and speak French. It was interesting to see how the nurses responded to me. Some pointed to things and said "walk, sit, signature." One girl tried to use her high school French. I was told that should there be a real French person, they would get a translator service.

The interesting thing was, as we were debriefing from the drill we received word that several real patients had been evacuated to us from Texas and were actually sitting in the ER. SO, needless to say the meeting was adjourned rather quickly and the people involved with the patient care went to check on their respective areas.

Time for Fall

Today was hot. It seems to me like it should be time for fall soon. October in Tennessee is one of my favorite months. My Florida friends should come visit!

Picture Purrfect! 

Heather, Amanda, and I on Heather's birthday. 

Yay for Company

Today Carrie is coming up to see me. She is going to visit River Chambers tomorrow. Last I heard he is recovering very well at Vanderbilt. For more information on River visit http://www.ljfarrowpe.com/river.html

She vetoed Mexican food and I vetoed Indian so we are compromising on Panera. Which is generally always a good choice!

I'm fun to visit! More of you should come!

I AM loved!

This weekend I decided I simply couldn't drive to Chattanooga again. It's not that far, but after so many weekeds, the drive gets old. But I am happy to announce that I had three visitors this weekend. First my parents drove up and went hiking with me for Sabbath afternoon. We had a nice picnic. Then Heather came up and we hung out Saturday night. We saw "Just like Heaven." It was actually cute. I recommend it to anyone who can look past the "yes spirits don't REALLY leave the body" aspect. We're going to head to Opry Mills today and do some shopping. Yay for company. :)

Do I stink or something?

Seriously, I took a shower this morning. But something about me seems to be uninviting to my co-workers lately. The girls in my office have started going out to supper and they don't invite me. Now I realize that this is petty and childish. But a month ago, they would have. I'm not sure what happened. As far as I know, I haven't offended anyone. It's true that my office is away from everyone. But still, I'm within walking distance. And there is always email.

Anyways. I'm sure I'll find something exciting to do this evening. Perhapes I can take up knitting.

What is my purpose?

I have a lot to be thankful for. A nice house, cute cat, good friends and family and a job that I generally like. But sometimes I still feel lost. Mostly when I'm up here in Nashville. What do I do in the evenings? Clean a little, shop a little, watch some TV, and listen to Kevin talk about his school. Sometimes it just feels like I'm not doing a lot with my life. I miss being involved in things. I miss connecting with people. I'm like an island up here. I know I'm going to miss being close to home if and when I move. But I need to do something different. I need to do more with my life than just work and talk on the phone.

I miss hiking

When I used to live in Chattanooga we would go hiking quite a bit in the fall. Chattanooga is perfect for hiking; there are so many trails and rivers and waterfalls nearby. It's beautiful really. Now that I don't live here, I have to drive 2.5 hours just to get home. So I rarely feel like driving my car somewhere to hike after that. So on Sabbath, I eat and talk until well into the afternoon and than usually just end up walking the greenway. Nothing wrong with that. I just miss the days when we would all get together after lunch and go out in nature.

I wish I could find a place to live that had both an ocean and nice hiking trials with waterfalls.

Worship ideas

I am supposed to give a short talk for our Week of Prayer at TCMC. I was planning on talking about the power of words and the importance of affirming each other, but someone took that topic. So, I need to think of a 10 minute talk or find an article on either our relationshp with God or with ourselves. Does anybody know of a good devotion I could read or have any ideas for this?

Thanks!

This was the coolest waterfall! It was covered in soft green stuff that you could easily walk all over. 

Picnic fun on Sabbath with Amanda and Heather.